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Schenectady = heaven? ;)

So it's May 22 and we are still here.  Not that I thought it would be different, though it is wise to remember that day will come sometime! In that spirit the kids and I had a fun talk at breakfast yesterday.
They have been around and heard people talking about the end of the world - at church, with friends, etc.  So I asked them, "If Jesus were to come back today, how does that make you feel?"  I got a couple of nervous smirks and a giggly "I don't know."  So I encouraged them to be honest because there can be no wrong answers when you ask someone how they feel about something.  Eventually we got around to talking about being nervous because we don't really know what heaven will be like.  We had some fun discussions on that one:  No, we will NOT turn into angels, they are created beings and we have the ability to choose to love and serve God where as they don't; We will be "caught up together with them in the clouds" (1 Thessalonians 4:17…

laying down the burdens

"You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day
To quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place
Worthy, Worthy
I open up my heart and let my spirit worship Yours
I open up my mouth and let a song of praise come forth
Worthy, You are worthy
Of a child-like faith
And of my honest praise
And of my unashamed love
Of a holy life
And of my sacrifice
And of my unashamed love"
(Ten Shekel Shirt, "Unashamed Love")

These last few weeks have been rather difficult weeks spiritually for me.  There has been a lot of opposition spiritually and I have not fought well!  I have given in and listened to the lies that Satan has whispered in my ears.  Lies that said, "You are not good enough and you will never be good enough.  How can God use you?  Why would God want to use you?"  And I fell for it -hook, line, and sinker.  Often I would find myself despairing over things that are out of my control, and obsessing over ways to fix it and make it more "contro…

This world is not our home

My heart is aching for many friends as I read their facebook posts, blogs, and prayer requests this morning.  I am sad for those in the south who are suffering from flooding and people in Pakistan who lost another loved one in a bombing and people in so many countries where there is not the freedoms we have.  I have been reading some books on persecution of Christians, and as I read through stories in Voice of the Martyrs I wonder if I could withstand the things that are being done to these brothers and sisters.  I feel heavy and overwhelmed for all the evil in the world, and the people that face it (and enforce it) each day. 
I keep reading about the prediction of the rapture happening this Saturday.  I put no stock in this prediction, but there is a glimmer of hope in remembering that it WILL happen someday.  And then those of us who know Jesus, who have relationship with him and have experienced his loving embrace here on earth will know it to the full measure as we go home - fina…

comforting familiarity

I love adventure!  Exploring new places, meeting new people, trying new foods, and doing different things all make me happy.  I have found that since I came to a place in life where I am not trapped in fear constantly (that's a blog for another time) I really enjoyed some things that I never thought I would do - flying in a MAF plane, canoeing on a crazy  river, and going to foreign countries.  I am a girl that use to have a panic attack riding a carousel because "what if something happened and my horse broke loose?"  (What if?  How many crazy carousel accidents have you heard of?! )  Anyway...
That being said, there is something comforting and intimate about routine.  Tonight at Compelled we got done practicing and the whole worship team, including the sound guy, went into the prayer room to pray together like we do each week.  There was no pushing people that direction.  Everyone put down instruments and went back to pray.  And we prayed together with the ease of peopl…

We've got issues :)

Doesn't everyone? :)  Shawn and I do counseling with several people each week - it comes with the territory of being a pastor and his wife.  And I really believe what I am saying when I tell them that it is a healthy, good thing to go to someone for help or advice.  I think we are very self righteous if we think we must have all the answers, and refusing to go to someone else for help when you need it shows that you must believe that! We have also been in counseling in the past.  When we were in our church in Ohio and had gone through a few crazy years of babies, miscarriages, redevelopment churches, surgeries, depressions and RJ's holes in his heart we looked at each one day and said, "And who are you?"  Shawn wisely called our wonderful DS and the district set us up with a week away with some intense counseling and then some weekly stuff for a while.  Just being away and having someone help us focus on God again did wonders.  We saw that we had not been guarding ou…

Mother's Day

I celebrated Mother's Day this year a little different than most would expect - with 15 people at my house for dinner.  I was only related to 5 of them.  :)  I LOVED it! 
Shawn has been teaching an international bible study on the RPI campus for the last 2 years.  (I think he has done it 5 semesters total.)  He loved this ministry, and it was so great to see the relationships formed and the people from all over the world - especially in places where the gospel is closed off- come to this study and hear about Christ.  It has been fruitful in many ways, and he had been rejuvinated many times just from going to this class.  But with our new schedule at two different churches, this has been one of the things that he has had to drop.  He will be in Troy Monday and Wednesday evenings, and both of those evenings are taken with things right now.  We are hoping he can get involved in the same ministry on the Union campus here in this area. 
Anyway, after each semester the students have wan…